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So it’s about a week into the new year and I’m finally getting around to putting some thoughts down on paper. I haven’t even been writing in my journal. I’ve fallen a bit behind on my routines that bring be peace. This is one for sure! 
So my mind has been preoccupied lately. Ever since the last week of the year, I got back into checking on stocks. Something of a hobby for me, but with the goal of becoming a day trader in time. I’ve dabbled a bit here and there but nothing serious. Last year before the breakup I had a few grand in some random pot and Blockchain stocks and was making some headway when the breakup happened. That’s when all the money in the world wouldn’t make me feel better if I didn’t have this girl back in my life. So I just gave it up and left the stocks in there. The last week of 2017 I checked on them and they had tripled. Which made me feel worse, not better!! Had they lost tons of cash I’d I tried, it was fun, and that’s that. But they didn’t. In fact, the ones I was watching…. Some has gone up 1000%!! Which made me want to get back in, but now I did t have the cash for it cause I was way over leveraged to get the house done. With the house not done yet, I still didn’t have the cash to transfer to get going again. So as you can imagine, I’ve been beating myself up about it. So much so that it’s creeping into my dreams and affecting my sleep and my mood in general. I’m greeting almost depressed lately. Like I failed. But not like I tried and failed, that I have no issues with. But more like I didn’t try hard enough. I missed the boat, missed the opportunity, the writing was on the wall and I ignored it! And now I’m kicking myself over it. Same feeling I got when we broke up. I wanted her back so bad, to try again. Try hard. Not take her for granted. Go back in time almost and try so hard. So if I fail I can say I gave it my 100% best! It that’s the case the I  can’t be upset. The thing that upsets me is that I don’t try!! I’ve never tried. I’ve always just skated by and not really tried that hard. And it’s always been scenting that’s bugged me. Wasted talent. I get really upset when I see others wasting their talent and it’s clear that it’s projection. It’s cause I’m upset at wasting mine. 

Also, I feel like I’ve been stifled. Held back. I have never been able to save so I could never invest. Something bigger at play. Self sabotage. Back when I was a child it was my parents or my brother. Someone else. But now it’s me. I stifle myself. I don’t try hard enough. I have 40 inventions I’ve come up in my head and yet have taken no action on even of them! An idea not acted on is the same as nothing! Nothing!! At this rate they will all come with me to the grave haunt me. Why have I not acted? I’m not entirely sure yet. Only guess is my character is not ready for that kind of cash yet. For retirement. I work now and I have an amazing job which I enjoy that makes me plenty of money. Had I saved up for a few years I would have been half way to retirement. Had I put the money in these stocks when I wanted to a few years ago I would be totally retired. Had I invested in the ones I wanted to months ago, I’d be half way there already by now. Yet my character is not allowing me to attract this type of wealth. I’m not ready to draw it in. 

Generally in life, things work out for me. Generally lol. Some things haven’t, but even those have gone exactly how they needed to go to get me to a better place. Even though I didn’t see it that way when they were happening. So the only thing I can assume is that this is another one of those things. I can’t know why. I could be that general, my family believes that stock markets are like casinos. In for one person to win someone else has to lose. And that goes against what we believe in. I do believe in a greater being, God, the universe, a power, whatever you call this being. And I believe that this being is always looking out for me. Could this be too much for me to handle right now? Could it be that doing it this way would be the equivalent of playing my bet on red and winning and walking away with a fortune only for it to hurt me down the road? Maybe. I’m just not sure. The one this I know is that I don’t want to lose. I don’t want to fail in life. I’ve always believed I’ve been destined for greatness. To be wealthy and help the world. A philanthropist of sorts saving the planet and its inhabitants. Am I too younge for this? Do I not have the ability to control all this right now? Would it drive me to doing bad ass shit where I would neglect my abilities? Not sure. But I know I always wanted to be rich younge. Drive sweet sports cars when I can enjoy them and not when I’m the old guy in the corvette. I never liked those guys. But can my character support this yet? I don’t know. I thought it could but it’s clear that it can’t.

Generally, I’m the type of person that starts the game and never finishes. And this is another one of those things. I started looking into the stock market but never finished. Never off the ground. I start a book and never finish it. So few do I ever. Most of them have bookmarks in them. I am also not focused. I want to do so many things that end up not doing anything at all! My father is the opposite. He starts and finishes everything. Never things undone. I’ve always wanted to be like him. Yet I value myself very little. Like I just can’t do it. Not good enough or not smart enough or whatever. Just not enough. And I for sure have a ‘not enough’ complex. There’s just never enough. Coming from a place of lack. We never grew up with lots of money so I’ve always wanted and couldn’t get. Then I got a job so I can have money to make my dreams come true. Instead of saving the money and investing and creating and inventing, I did nothing but have a good time. Spent like it was going out of style and never saved anything. I did buy a house so I guess that’s one thing I did right. Of course the GF, she’s definitely one thing I right. I have no doubt that we will be successful in the end and wealthy but I want it now! I always want it now. Short term vs long term. I have no patience and I’m learning all about it. 

I started reading this one book, recommended by the CEO of a very successful Corp the GF is a part of. Crazy enough, they invest people’s money and give then crazy amazing returns. As secure as anything is gonna be in this world with a 10% return. Obv this brings me back to blame as had I had the money saved up, I could have thrown then into the stocks I been watching, turned 10k into 100k, then that 100k into a million. Took that million and invested it with her @ 10% return and BBAAMMM!! 100k a year to live on! I wouldn’t quick my job but I’d have 100k coming in every year to invest, buy a house, whatever. Build the empire. But no such luck. Oh yes, the book. It’s called “The richest man in Babylon”. Such simple principles and yet no one needs to follow them, least of all myself. If only I had a time machine!! Lol right? I’m sure 90% of the world would love one of those!! 

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People Love Being Sheep

Posted: March 17, 2017 in Entrepreneur, Money, Success


It’s crazy that people just love being sheep. Talk to anyone about making more money or retiring early or even something as simple as a better investment vehicle backed by solid data and some of the most successful people on the planet, and they will try to shut it down faster than a hooker shuts down free sex!  So many people in this world are so happy in their little comfort bubble that they refuse to see anything else but being sheep! I mean don’t get me wrong, thank goodness for them! They pay into a system that keeps them down, and they LOVE it!! Without THEM there will never be people like US. Entrepreneurs, explorers, risk takers, willing to put a little on the line to get out of the rat race and be free of the golden handcuffs we placed on ourselves willingly. It’s just mind-boggling really why we even do it! Yes I know, your saying….. well what option to I have other than being a sheep? What else can I do other than get sheered, milked, and eventually slaughtered?!? The answer is….. YOU HAVE ALL THE OPTIONS IN THE WORLD!! If you’re in a 3rd world country, oppressed, terrorized, held down by “the man” then ok it’s safe to say that your facing some pretty big hurdles. Fair enough. And for that, my heart truly goes out to you. But short of that, options are unlimited. The only that thing that will ever stop you is your own mind! 

I haven’t in a while, but in the last few months the things I’ve discovered about the world and about myself have been mind-boggling and earth shattering for me! I’ve heard that “you’re your own worst enemy” my whole life and yet it just hasn’t sunk in. Not till recently when I got “forced” into attending the Landmark Forum. Since then my life has totally taken a turn for the amazing. And really all it took was the guts for me to stand up for my dreams and do something to help myself achieve what I have always wanted.

If you anything like me, you’ve got a good paying job, you maybe put a little tiny bit of cash away for a rainy day, and the rest you enjoy on a typical north american lifestyle. Maybe a dinner out once a week, a trip somewhere sunny once a year, a lease on a car, and maybe even mortgage on a small house. I mean, it’s a good life. But if we have it so good in the industrialized world and especially in north america, then why is there over 44,000 suicides in the US a year and rising?? And that’s successful attempts! 1 in 25 succeed!! So really that’s over 1,000,000 suicide attempts a year!!! Why is depression skyrocketing in north america? 1 out of 10 Americans are clinically depressed, with an increase of 20% diagnosis A YEAR!!! The numbers are staggering!! What’s going on?!

Yet with all this data and all the options that we have around is we’re still not happy, still not satisfied with our lives, and the majority of us choose to do NOTHING ABOUT IT!!! So here I am at work, telling a younger guy about my discoveries the last few months and how I’m implementing all I’m learning and recently acquired knowledge of financial freedom, when in comes in a couple old timers stuck in their ways of ‘nothing gets you financially free other than working till your 55/65, putting your money away in a pension or in RRSP’s (yes im Canadian) and eventually you can live on the crumbs that are handed to you if you’ve been a good little boy/girl and maybe you’ll get 10 or so years out of it and eventually leave a little bit to the kids if their lucky. WOW!! That’s one helluva life. I bet that’s exactly what you said you wanted to grow up to be when you were a wee little child! What happened to those dreams? When did they get crushed? When did you give up on it all? And really, what the point of it all? Why choose a life where your dead on the inside just going through the motions being unfulfilled, unloved (ourselves), and just plain resigned at best!! And that’s if everything is going great in life! On the other side of spectrum there’s all the other stuff. Depression, anxiety, poverty, illness, and a whole host of things so many of us suffer with in silence at one point or another in our lives! And yet when someone tries to impart some freedom on another, they get shut down and anything they say that doesn’t fit into their preconceived notion of what life should look like doesnt even make it in to be explored, not even window shopped let alone bought!

So why bother? I dunno. Part of me what’s to just say, “look you do what you do, I’m just gonna keep getting rich”. Yet another part of me looks out and sees a sea of potential and just want to jump in with my life ring and rescue them from the lifeless abyss the are hurdling to full throttle, eyes wide open, mind fully shut!

I dunno. Then again, maybe I should just keep mouth shut and let them pay into the system to keeps them down and elevates me into being 45 sitting on 45 mill.


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