Archive for September, 2018


Posted: September 29, 2018 in Heart

I wonder about failure sometimes. A lot actually. Why does it happen, why does it have to happen, why is it inevitable? But mostly I wonder about why is it that sometimes you try super hard and just keep getting shut down, and sometimes you don’t try at all and it all just lands in your lap. I’ve heard a million theories. The most relevant one seems to come back over and over, and that’s vibration. Whatever it was just wasn’t a vibrational match for you at that moment in time. And I get that, conceptually. But in practice it doesn’t translate.

Today I saw and Insta post about Jack Ma, co-founder of Alibaba and it made me think, and wonder about this very thing. He failed 3 times in college, applied to 30 jobs and got rejected, out of 24 he was the only one not to get hired at KFC, didn’t get accepted to be a cop, applied 10 times to Harvard and got denied. Today hes worth almost 30 billion dollars. So why? Why all the failure, why all the rejection? Was his vibration too high for the things he was trying to get? I mean Harvard, you’d think your vibration would have to be pretty high to get in there, right? So then what is it? And I see this over and over and over, in my life and in others lives around me.

What comes to mind is fate, destiny. There’s something out there that you need to get or somewhere you need to be that had you gotten that thing and got accepted to that place or dated that girl, you’d never have gotten there, it would have derailed you from where you needed to be. We always have the grandest plans, but we almost never get there. But yet we are always where we need to be, and most never where we want to be.

The easiest way I can explain this is through dating. 2 years ago I happen to meet this wonderful girl that came out of the blue. We’re no longer together, but the journey I have been on since then has been extraordinary. I met her out of the blue, totally not expecting to meet her at all. I was dating an amazing girl, in love with her actually, and this one comes along out of the blue. So I do what any man looking for the next best thing would do, I broke up with the one I was seeing and started dating the next one. What has come from that move has changed my life.

I did not expect to be in that position, at all, not even close. But that’s where I needed to be. From that relationship I ended up living on a tropical island, working with CEO’s of companies, meeting the most incredible people, and embarking on a self-exploratory journey of self development that has altered the course of my life. Although one relationship “failed”, the next one catapulted me to a much higher plane. The meteoric rise came crashing less than a year ago and I was left stunned, shocked. How could something so good come to such an end? From them I went back into the dating field, only to come up short over and over. Wondering, why is this not working out? Clearly I can do it, I’ve done it before. And then after rejection after rejection, I come across a beautiful girl that ends up showing me a whole new life, once again. I got the do some things on my bucket list that would never have happened had I stayed in that relationship. And let me tell you, she was a ffrreeaaakkkk!!! We had a lot of fun. Traveled, partied, had a great time. And then that ended. Only for me to find another one that made me realized that this was the one I had been waiting for this whole time. We had a short relationship and then I was over it. But from that I saw that sometimes the things we hold on to might not be the best thing for us to have, and that we do it mostly so that we don’t have to face whats out there, and whats out there sometimes looks lonely.

During my 2 year relationship I was a difference man, and I use the word MAN loosely. I was male, but not masculine. Somewhere along the way I had lost it. The breakup and consequent collapse of my self worth allowed me to see that there was a problem that needs to be addressed. Which led me to the Sterling Institute of Relationships. Justin Sterling taught me things I needed to learn that would have never happened had I just stayed in that relationship which I knew was not working but refused to leave it because of the fear of me not finding anyone as good. Meaning that my self worth was dependent on her and without her I am worth nothing. But she had to leave in order for me to see my own worth and work on my own self to become a better man, and masculine man that is not afraid of failure. After all, the more failure we encounter in our life the more we are able to deal with it. There is no such thing as being fearless, but there is such a thing as being courageous. And courage is what gets me through. We will encounter multiple failures in life, but the key is to have the courage to know that they are roadblocks for a reason, and everything happens for a reason, and its always in your favor. As long as you never give up and keep trying, the thing you need is out there waiting for you to smash through failure and failure, rejection after rejection until it shows up.

Which brings me back to relationships. The ones I get rejected by might get me down for a minute, but when I see it as destiny, it changes the context of how I see it. So I got denied by one, what if I hadn’t, what if it worked… where would I be? Would I be derailed from the one that I really am looking for? Would I have to settle for that one and miss out? So many of us do, and live a miserable life with someone that doesn’t light is up. And this story of life is a short one, so why not live it to its fullest, come what may? Fear. Fear that we might not do better, that we might end up failing and being alone, and the person we are looking for is not going to be out there. I think as long as we know what we want and keep going after it, then its inevitable that they will show up.

So many things in life seem to not work out, even when we have the best of intentions. Is it because we are failures? Or is it really because that is not what we are meant to have ? Have I had fun this summer?? Yes, Yes I have. I’ve had 3-somes, dated amazing women, had the best experiences, and had a blast along the way. Has any of them worked out? NO. But what has come of it? Experiences that I’ve always wanted to have and would never have had I just settled in a miserable relationship. Since the breakup I’ve traveled, I’ve dated, I’ve had the best wines, the best food, seen some amazing places, hung out with amazing friends, and started the road to one self-development company, and started working on my inventions…something I have been putting off my entire life. So could this be why? Well… theoretically…. had I settled down with the ex, my invention would never have gotten off the ground because I would have gone full force in to her business. I would have never had the experience of all those women. I would never have experienced all the experiences I had the pleasure of experiencing. And the list goes on and on. And most of all I would not be in a place where I needed to work on something I love and make my own way in life, independent of anyone else. So was it all worth it, well I guess only time will tell…. but I can tell you this. Since then, I’ve had the best sex of my life, gotten the best BJ’s of my life, had the best drinks I’ve ever tasted, met some of the most amazing people, and embarked on a journey that will no doubt lead me to where I’ve always wanted to be. And the story is not over yet.

All we get in this one is one day, 24 hours. Everything that happens in the world happens in 24 hours. So make it the best 24 hours of your life!!

The simple thing

Posted: September 20, 2018 in Heart

This simplest things in life are really the best. The love of a woman. Watching her sleep after eating her pussy so good she cums and falls asleep, holding her in your arms, feeling her warmth, having a smoke outside listening to the crickets sing their song, typing up a blog drunk off Spanish wine. It’s a beautiful life. Never take it for granted. Ever.

Life is so precious. We won the lottery just by being alive. Use every moment. Every single one. Live these moments like their your last. Cause what if there was no other. Would you be where you are???? I know I would. If these were my last moments in life I’d be perfectly content. The beauty of life. That’s the thing. It’s beautiful cause you never know. You never know. And if I knew, I’d still do what I’m doing right now. So grateful. So content. Thank you.